Longing

This one is a bit of a departure from my normal style. I'm just free flowing right now so I just started typing and I'm gonna post it.

I am very content with my life. I can honestly say with full assurance that there is not much I can complain about (besides maybe my car, but that's really nothing). I love Jesus and I love what God is doing in my life. It's funny though, I don't feel as though there is some great thing that is in the works or that something awesome is coming my way. God is just good and I'm content.

Despite my content disposition, I am still longing for something. I don't feel as though my relationship with God is lacking, though I am constantly in need of more personal time with Him, I don't think that's what it is. (I'm sure it's probably bad to say that I'm longing for something besides God, but whatever. That's not exactly what I'm saying). I have wonderful friends and an amazing family that love me. I'm really not lacking in anything, but yet I long for something.

Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm suppressing my discontent with positive thinking and constant distraction from what's really bothering me. I probably sound crazy right now! (But everyone is a little bit crazy right? The world would be boring without crazy people!). All I know is I'm longing for something and I don't know what it is. I'm gonna pray for God to fulfill whatever it is, or at least ask that I be satisfied in Him alone. I guess we'll see what He comes up with!